I don't feel well. I haven't felt well for a long time. I haven't been fully awake since only God knows when, I've forgotten what it feels like to not be tired. I'm never fully there when I talk to people. I don't give anything 100% anymore. I have no drive, no new thoughts, no emotions for myself. I don't feel okay. I feel bleak. I'm in a slump.
Every night I get into the shower. I turn the knobs until the water spurting out makes my skin rage red because it's so hot. I then take my bar of soap and scrub my skin raw. I'm trying to rub off the layer of skin that makes me feel like this. The layer of skin I don't like. That layer is made up of all the things I don't like about myself. I scrub especially hard on my shoulders, as if to remove the weight of the world from them.
Sheesh. I don't want to come off as depressed, because I don't think I am. I'll get out of my slump.
I always do.
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i hope so, plus you can always lean on me (even if i sound so cliche lol) because i wowe you lady kay
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